sadly, the rest of my life isnt going as well. i hate writing stuff like this in my diary bc it is obviously public, but i threw up everything i ate today. oh and got a new pill called betalean. i hope its better than all the other crap pills ive taken. elizabeth walker found out (about the puking) and shes cool with it, and then jill and haley were asking a lot of questions bc i went to the bathroom right after eating. haley thinks she figured it out but shes an idiot so i dont think she will.
on a lighter note, i swam much better today. i wasnt weighted down by tons of crap though, so it was easier for me to sprint. i finally beat ugly gas-problems keegan though... its been a while since i did. she was so upset about it too, and i was incredibly proud of myself. oh and haltom told me i did good, too. after the meet we went to pasta co, and i had a lasagna on the way down and up, and then we went to smoothie king and stole the betalean. i hope its worth it.
so, mood-swings are back. i hate my period SO much... cramps are AWFUL, and then im always mood swinging and it gets annoying. this morning i was elated when i went to go get my car washed. i pulled up and the woman told me that my car wouldnt be washed in time for me to go to the meet... so i started crying. i feel bad for her, she was trying to comfort me through her confusion. but i bet she knows what im going through: it sucks to be a girl. oh and i got incredibly angry at stephanie payne, too.
she told me i needed to pull my pants up because my ass was showing-- which it wasnt-- and proceeded to do it for me. i yelled, "dont touch me!" and she kept making cracks about how low my pants were. finally, i snapped, screeching, "just because you wear your pants up to your belly button doesnt mean everyone else has to!"
that was kind of a low blow, and i regret it, because she really does wear her pants incredibly high. but it pissed me off so badly that the worst-looking girl on the swim team, with the most awful sense of style (that all the swimmers/polo players laugh at all the time) would dare have the audacity to tell me what to wear. i mean, you have to have to look at least a little bit attractive to tell other people what to wear. sheesh...
i liked today. it was enjoyable, because i relish my mood swings, no matter how much they suck. its just great to get away with it just because everybody knows how much periods suck.